reply to a double input!!

Sitting here bout 10:07 am chillin bout at school till noon mite run out for lunch...kinda reflecting on how lame I sometimes act towards myself when I shouldnt. I've complained that my personality is boring, weird or just too much. In the end it dosnt matter God accepts me for myself and the actions, and the life I am living. I strive to live for him, and eventaully to what he has asked me to be, which i am still on that journey to find out(i guess I wait and see on his timing) i really need the gift of patience to step up in my life. I am finally getting my priorities straight which is awesome. God, others(family friends), than my needs than the very last is my wants. There is a voice inside me that really dosent want the WANTS anymore. Those wants just make me want more which is why i really dont want them anymore.
Some of those wants I've realized God takes them and brings them back as needs. The need of some strong friendships(god will provide), wisdom(God will provide), and energy(God can provide)..it all comes down to the input i put in. I just sometimes get lost into what exactly that is i do to receive the answer. Thats my biggest prayer I've been workin with since I've realized God in High School!!

...friendships...its meaning..my statues

It changes over time, and life can let it grow or just let it go. It all the depends on the plan that God has set for me. If the relasionship with him is connected then others will soon follow. People come in and out of our lives for many different reasons. I wonder if there is a way that I wont forget, because each relasionship I've had/have has its own meaning.
Still looking, for the special one but yea i think that will come if its meant to be. Still waiting on a few relasionships so i feel comfortable in life!
Its really been all over the place for me, but I stand my ground cause goD is my ultimate best friend. What i am learning now is patience in the Lord and the relasionships will come. I strive so hard. I probably need to get my reality straightened out first.